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As decisively so, as I could have wished. They must have
thought I was miserable company, for I could not appear cheerful and pleasant
as I ought to, to every one that calls here. But I will “look wild
for your jealousy,” and not say any think more about them. That day
I read over all your letters, and the verses you gave me. (I could not find
more pleasant reading, Philip, and I think I could not more dislike.) I
should like much to see the verses you wrote before the sixteenth of May,
but am willing to wait your own time, to show them to me. I believe I remember
the exhibition you have mentioned, if it was the one I think it was, you
went with me, and I sat on a seat near the door, with the Storr’s
girls. In the course of the evening you came and brought us a paper of raisings.
But perhaps that was not the time, I think you could not have known or cared
enough about me to write verses then, or a month afterwards. The evenings
of last week, last year, Dear Philip were some of the happiest we have ever
spent together. You do not forget that you used to come in from singing
school, and sit till about – I believe ten was the hour you meant
to go, but I think it was generally nearer eleven than ten, before you went.
Even then, Philip, we were unwilling to part when we knew we should meet
again the next evening. How little we thought then of the many evenings
we were to be seperated. i often think it strange, that I did not realize
that you were going more than I did. Last evening, Philip, what a beautiful
one it was. I tried to think where we were the Friday evening, (for the
fourth came on Friday last year) before we went to Burlington, but I could
not. I, however, think we must have been together. Last evening I went alone
to the point beyond Captain Rogers’. I sat down upon the same rock
we sat on, when you fixed those oak leaves on my bonnet, and I sat down
for a few minutes under the oak tree. I have been there twice before this
year, but not when it was as pleasant as it was last evening. Coming home,
I called in to see Harriet, but she was not at home, and Julia has gone
to Burlington again to stay through Commencement. I believe it was the eight
when we went to Burlington, and the tenth when we returned. I think some
[the next part is cross hatching] – The sixteenth of August, dear
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